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NPCC Friday, July 31, 2009 School was normal ! Got NPCC later on . went there rather late . got promoted .. woohoo ~~ so ya .. after NPCC, as usual .. went to hougang mall area .. to makan . and chit chat ! chat chat chat .. till quite late then home ! thanks for that lie FRIEND . my mood aint stable yet .. gossh . i really wish i could move on ! Awww... its , Amanda.C i find it so difficult to move on . Thursday, July 30, 2009  Random pic . MrsLilyLee came today . But she went home later on . She was sick ! LOL .. okehh .. socialstudies , i am yet to do . really lah .. i dont know what to write on . Common Space ?? why issit good to have common space ? okehh .. weird . Normal School day .. And what the hell .. Tomorrow , got 2 test . English & History . *Faint* Really irritating .. to have test pratically every week . Morning , my attitude was bad . i scream at cheejean as he tried to wake me up for Pledge taking & Temperature reading . Sorry ohh .. i just felt tired . & ya , we had missed out 3 D&T lesson . as teacher had not been coming on every Thursday . hoho .. & for Buddah Sake .. CommonTest2 is round the corner ! feel it feel it .. Feel the Stress !!! i cant . okehh , my bad ! as .. i was really still trying to overcome my emotionals problems . STALKER STALKER .. you are happy living with the name STALKER ! cos , a girl gave you this nick . its obvious that you had fall for her . cos , thats is what you did to me .. on MSN . when we get to met 2 years down the road again . Devil dead .. Stalker arise . okehh . i feel the pinch .. really . i shouldnt be caring , but why am i !? hello .. its just Buddah DAMN BLOODY 2 MONTHS we are tgt . & i got so insane . how , STUPID of me . Whatever lah .. After school , headed to GYM . then makan & home . smelly me ohh ! i fall asleep immediately when i reach home .. So imagine .. i stink to the max . bathe immediately after i wake up . Seriously , what happen to me ? why issit always that , when i fall asleep , i get weird dreams . or sometimes , got a sudden gush of missing ZX . why ? & i will feel very miserable over zx . the feeling really come out of sudden . and worst , i will wake up . then start to think .. and it pains me . ))= why why why !? one thing i really know is .. i can no longer feel the laughter ! like .. i am laughing , but my heart isnt .. understand ? like .. very weird .. the feeling is really nothing . & can feel that .. i am jus having facial expression . ohh .. really .. whats with me . AMANDA ! WAKE UP MAN !! . its jus infatuation . Awww... Its Amanda.C TATAR TATAR ...... GUITAR and your DOTA . just that effort . Wednesday, July 29, 2009  My Friend "Thomas." okehh .. what with my form teacher ? she been not in school for 3days . Today got her lesson and she is not here . but is good lah ! cos , omg .. i didnt do the Debate thing .. omg omg .. really how ? i dont know how to do . idiot ! tmr , i bet she will be in school . so er .. like that .. lor . After school , stayed back in school to really do some revision . Me , Evy & Bird , sat outside the staff room , with MissLiang . She is really a nice teacher ! so .. ya .. did abit , and MrOng , my math teacher came . so , he accompany us and MissLiang went off to do her stuff . So ya , suppose to go throught maths .. but he gave US a lecture about BGR . Really , i really make me understand things . Attraction , Infatuation , Lust and LOVE & now , all i am having is just a Infatuation . so i have to move on .. Amanda , MOVE ! after his talks about BGR , we get to math . seriously , i am really way back .. and have alot to catch up . since , the day , we quarrel , i had not been studying . really.. and CommonTest is round the corner . Sigh .. whats with me man !? i got to learn how to CONTROL . so ya .. after studying , we head to PlazaSingapura . i get my wallet , evy get her gift .. had lunch .. & home .. yaa , i took a picture with "Thomas&Friends !" You know why , i got a friend name Thomas ? Because , thomas goes ... "Choo ! Choo ! Choo !" & this thing came up with MRONG ... hah .. Picture on top ! ZX , i do still miss you . i dont know if you reads my blog . But , i hope you do . really , dont avoid me . i know .. i tend to express my feeling to you alot .thats me . you shld know it well . its better to have you a friend . i am normal . dont give me a feel of rejecting . it sucks big time ! after all , i let it go .. if we are meant to be tgt .. WE WILL . we just once got a infatuation . i feel that i am having a hard time to move on. Awww .. its Amanda.C What a DAY . Tuesday, July 28, 2009  Random Pic School was boring . okehh , there is a classmate of mine . Claps for him . Today , my friends was playing with a rubber spider .. then JunWei , he shouted : "HEY , put it on teacher table , SCARE HER SCARE HER ." & ya , it was chinese period . My chinese teacher is so pissed off that she ask him to apologise if not go detention room . JUNWEI STYLO ! .. he just walk in to class , took his bag and off to detention room . Cos , he say he dont owe my teacher a apologise . CLAP CLAP ... really .. power . and my chinese teacher throw my paper away ! what the fcuk .. ytd , water .. today paper . i kept silence . cheers .. >=) Normal school . After school , suppose to go to gym , but .. i forget to bring towel . so headed home . just somehow , it pissed me off ..zx , you are a really bitch . pain pain ...... Awww ... its Amanda.C MONDAY Monday, July 27, 2009  random pic School today . MrsLilyLee Didnt come so , got 3 free periods . I was Fcuking pissed off in the morning . i got a bottle of pink dolphine . then the uncle didnt give me the cap . so nvrm . My class was super noisy today , for dont know what reason . then , my chinese teacher which is my Co-Form teacher came in . she was so pissed off with my class that she go round confisicating stuff and throwing sweet drinks away . I was bloody unlucky ! My pinkDolphin was on the table and she just take and throw ! hello !!! is like i drink less then half bottle . and bloody hell . my friends are able to hide their drinks and i got not enough time to go hide my drink . $1 FLY .... Argh . i was angry to the max . but just somehow . i control ! Claps .. Then jus normal stuff done in school . But i dont know why , MrOng , our math teacher so angry sial . when he came in to the class .. he start Screaming . ohh buddah .. After school , i went to compass point with cheejean & tiffany . As i wanted to get my EEYORE . so got then to accompany me . buy , eat .. home . Reach home .. and off to bed . ohh gosshh .. i realise uh . i got alot of things to do . but i'm jus too LAZY to really go complete my stuff . it been weeks since i pack my bag . so ya .. my back is having chunks of paper . rotted bag . hohoh .. okehh .. really , i have to push myself real hard to study & get my stuff done . Tmr , really .. i make this effort . But , aiyooooohhh , my BOYS OVER FLOWER ! OMFG .. JIHOO .. handsome .. {melting} PS:IMISSYOU . Awww ... is Amanda.C ICE AGE 3 . Sunday, July 26, 2009 Yesterday , Headed to grandma's hse . and then off to watch ice age 3 with aunty . its cute lah , the show . Really , i am emotionally tired . i just got so tired of everything . feeling moody & lost . what went wrong ? i also dont know . it too me so long to finally make a slight improvement of my thoughts and yet another shit happen . what wrong man !? okehh .. i admit , i indeed have emotional shit problem . but hello . i still stay strong . my mouth and heart DONT match . get it .. trust me . i dont allow my thoughts to go to COMMIT SUCIDE . so lame . really lah , if you just want give me shits . then let me tell you , i am no longer here to entertain you . ZX , thanks for really hearing me out [25july, 11.47pm] you are tired , yet you still made an effort really talk to me . & i know , you will feel , i am still the same as ever . cos i dominates the Convo ! PS: pictures tmr . i'm off to bed . awww ... its Amanda.C be yourself day . Tuesday, July 21, 2009 HEY ! .. went to school with home clothes today . Casual ! many things , happen . i'm still unable to face it . missing him real badly at times . i jus want him to know , in things i had done . my feeling for you were Strong . It jus only , 2month+ and i'm insane . Really , i have to move on .. AMANDA MOVE ! MOVE ! MOVE ! pictures , will upload soon . i'm tired now . goodnight . AWWWWW ..... is , Amanda.C Sigh . Thursday, July 16, 2009  Bird , Jocelyn & Me  My doodle .. School school school .. Back to school . Today was rather slacky . cos , D&T teacher didnt came & Math teacher didnt give homework . woots . After school , went compass point to get some stuff and have lunch . Then head back home . I went to sleep immediately when i'm home . I just felt so tired . Woke up at about .. 7pm ? & i got a bad headache . out of nowhere .... So turn on the Computer and start chatting . Forhim , You said you miss me . it really make my day . But action doesnt show . Yaa , i know you want things to go slowly . so do i , we had been 2 months tgt only . Yet we quarrel till we had been together for very long . i know , we could be very sweet if .. i did not act thinks rashly . i know . but ... the fact is i had already done it . i'm sorry . I tried all ways to really clear out everything . but .. nothing seems to be working . You need the time . i know it too . You need time .. to really be alone .. think , and get things right . a month seems short too you ? but it seems a year to me ? or even a decade . i miss you so badly . you went round fooling around .. saying "this Chio that Chio" its indeed hurting for me to see that on MSN .. seeing how much you praise girls and everything . i am JEALOUS , FCUKING JEALOUS . but .. if i go make a fuss out of it . things will be worst for us . i need you . and i want that last chance badly . 19 more days to the ans . {include today} will you leave me ? i hope not . Amanda.C BRB . Wednesday, July 15, 2009 LALALAAA ~~ i didnt went school today . Having fever .. ohh .. SIAN ! So wake up .. use computer .. and i chatting with ZX ! This Devil , didnt go school cos of the nice weather as it rain in the morning . haiyyooo .. He was out with his friend for lunch . so , ya .. i shall get going too . i meeting evy . TO SHOPPING ! woots .. Update more later .((= Hey yaa ... i'm back home .. went to plaza singapura & orchard today . me and Evy got a bag , for about $39.90 . her's black . Mine , Blue . Ate KFC for dinner . & chatted and home .. For him , its really time to face problems . Running away from them wont slove . You maybe happy for running away , but what about the other party who treasure you to the max & really wants to clear things out with you ? I know lah , its really irritating .. if i keep pestering you for an answer . i control . i didnt ask anymore . i run away too . I pretend nothing happen but jus to have a chat with you . Chatting with you was nice .. cos i miss you . really missing you badly at times . i wanted to tell you "hey , can we just drop our past down and be bestfriends ? i want to be like lastime when we was friends .. its really nice ." But i didnt tell you .. cos somehow , i still needs you . & i'm afraid that i will regret in my decision . When i face problems , the first person i want to turn to is YOU . Sometimes , you are nice .. to really talk things with me . but most of the time .. you jus dont bother and really give me attitudes . i hated your attitudes so badly . but yet i say nothing to it . i really wonder , do you miss me ? do you feel the importance without me ? i do miss you .. i do feel the importance of you . I know lah .. even if we are back together , things wont be the same . and i am sure , i will be the person giving in most . cos i know , you can no longer endure anymore . baby , i miss you . and sometimes , i hope i didnt rush things . ily . Amanda.C i aint a dirt . Monday, July 13, 2009 why am i given all kinds of attitudes ? i simply got no mood to make a post . maybe something went wrong . Friday, July 10, 2009 If you do got somebody else .. do tell me . dont make me a fool to wait for you .. thanks ! //Edited .. OHgossshhh .. maybe i had jump to a conclusion too fast . dont blame me , for getting over sensitive . Cos , yaa .. you no longer mine which make me have higher risk of losing you . okehh .. so lame of me . but .... aiyaahhh drop this . I think , my school very retard . Today was raining heavily .. then they only open the front gate which we had to walk in the rain to reach the bus-stop . Me & Shannon was drench badly . Worst thing was that .. after we had reach the bus-stop , the school open the back gate . OH FREEAK ~~ Then , both of us headed home .. get , bathe & dress . then meet at compass point then to Vivo city . It was nice lah . it been so long since me and shannon had an outing . Wanted to get alot of stuff .. but was fickle minded .. so end up , we got nothing ! but chocolates . hah . Reach home around 8pm , bathe and on with computer ! AWW .... & ya ,, i took my IC photo today . Amanda.C Thursday, July 09, 2009  cute ?  the insect .. [spot it] There is a huge insect at our D&T class . Most of us freak out .. cause its indeed scary lah . seeing my classmates reaction really make me laugh my ass off .. The Scene : We get into the class .. some of my class girls wanted to take a closer view of the insect . so they was walking slowly towards the insect .. As the got close , suddenly the insect flew and all scream and disperse into everywhere .. north south east west !!! is damn funny .. hahah okehh .. maybe , i understand myself only . so yaa .. after school , home and head to gym . with evy and tiffany . nice work out . then eat and home .. Time pass so slow .. i wonder alot of stuff and i sont know what to do . i hope you will turn back for me . baby , i miss you ..... Girls !!! shopping tmr ... wooohoo .. Amanda.C arghh .. Wednesday, July 08, 2009 fcuked up ... baby , imissyoubadly .. Amanda.C pain . Tuesday, July 07, 2009 School was fine . Had lunch at compass point after school . suppose to go Gym but .. ohh well ... friends not free . i am feeling so dead . i am in pain now .. ohh gossshhh . i return the jacket to ZX and i got back mine . i feel so regretted .. i love the jacket .. it been with me .. about 2months . Everywhere i go .. jacket is there for me . baby , i miss you . i do .. i really do .. you really treated me like shit . just that you dont feel it .. cos all you feel is that you are hurt . i did accept who you are .. i jus need more time to be perfect . who am i to you ? a dirt ? you wont do anymore things for me already . Amanda.C BABY DEVIL Monday, July 06, 2009 Youth Day holiday . I'm back with blogging . seriously , many things happen . and almost were pains i got but i cant blame anybody for it .. yaa .. something nice enough was that i'm attach to HuangZhixiong , on 03May'09[3.33am] . Starting was really a blessing to me .. things went smoothly . He treated me Damn fcuking nice . But , i know.. i didnt give in as much as he did . i always tells him , "i dont give a damn !" i know i was wrong . But , i just simply got no trust in guys . its real fear towards them . i told , ZX about how bad i may treat him , and what i ask for was time to accept him . & he agreed to be with me and endure stuff . So ya .. after 1 month , i learn to accept him . things was even nicer after that . but every thing ended on 18june'09 . He lied to me . it isnt something very serious but , no girls will like their boyfriend to lie am i right ? even though its something small . The Lie : i was having some quarrel with my parents and i was feeling so annoyed . i wanted to complain stuff to ZX ..but before i want to complain , i ask him to hold on awhile as i want to get myself wash up first then talk to him , comfortably . After my wash up , i get back to the phone .. but he had already hang the phone . i Msg him , asking what went wrong .. and he told me , he have to put down the phone as his mother was Ranting at him badly & he wants to sleep . I was so fustrated & msg him some harsh words .. saying that all he care was sleep what for wanting me as a girlfriend ? & just some how things got worst lah ..well , at least he was nice enough .. saying that he could accompany me msg and not talk on the phone .. but .. like abit weird lah . you was trying to complain yet .. you have to msg .. wont that be more fustrating ? so i told him , i want to call .. he was like .. ohhokehh .. can , but wait .. i go out of my hse first .. so ya .. i called him before he tell me he was ready.So he accidentaly press the answer button .. and i heard cars moving .. 6sec , he hang the phone . so ya .. i got so suspicious , that is he .. at home ? all out with friends ? so i called again . he didnt ans the phone . and i msg saying that ya .. dont make me call your hse . then , i call his cellphone again , and he answered . He told me he went to had MAC with his friends ! WHAT THE HELL !?????? i was angry .. i'm so angry with my parents and need somebody to talk too and yet .. he go mac to eat and told me he was tired and need to sleep . will you all be angry ??? it happen in mid-night .. about , 1am . so ya .. i was fcuking hurt and i didnt get to sleep . so i was like calling him .. and we talk all the ways till 4am ? but he was showing me attitude badly .. saying he was very tired . So i put down the phone .. and got some sleep . and i woke up very early as i cant sleep . then i got myself ready .. as there is a BBQ with my primary school frinds @ 1pm . 1pm , reach .. i meet them and yaa ... nice . and i was troubling with the lie .. thinking what i should do .. my friend told me "Forgive & Forget .. humans do lie ." So , i decided to meet him up and had lunch & talk things out . But ... yaa .. another thing turn out .. he had to go school and he left me at the bus stop saying he got no time to entertain me . yaa .. lahh .. school important .. but .. HELLO does he have to leave me there ? and leave to school ? i travel all the way from angmokio , just to meet him . he did miss a few bus before he leave me .. but .. i jus feel so fcuk up lah ! i want talk things out . but .. aiyoooohh .. i know i was demanding . but .. argh . its really something horrible to dump me there lah . Hmms .. around 7pm , ZX came to the BBQ and ya .. i told him to put everything down and had fun . so we did ?? then home .. and blah .. Quarrel again .. Things got settle down on 21june ? But another worst thing occur on 22june . I lost the ring ZX gave me and i slap him . oh well ... its 100% my mistake . i cant say anything .. but ... omg . we both ended ? ohhhh ... gosssshhhhh ...... Baby , i am really loving you badly . Forgive me ? & yes , i need you . I want my HUANGZHIXIONG back . its really a pain to lose you . But .. ya .. hiding behind walls dont slove problems . baby baby baby ... | |
