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STRESSsssss .. Tuesday, September 29, 2009 I'M BLOODY HELL FEELING STRESS ! for the damn hell first time . i got so stress up . Preassuring myself real hard . but nothing seems to be done . I say .. but my actions doesnt prove . Feeling real .. shitty ! A tiring school day i had today . iwas feeling very sleepy when class started . But still , i manage to keep my ears & eyes open BIG ! =D 2hours of SocialStudies SRP was conducted today . Attend it . teacher talk almost the whole 2 hours . didnt did any writing at all . Teacher talk alot .. so is like .. damn difficult to memorise all & i am damn lazy to write it down . So Guess WHAT !!! My classmates took out their handphone ... and start recording teacher voice ! TECHNOLOGY IS HERE , WHY BOTHER ! hahah ! damn stylee . After SRP , headed to hougang mall alone to get Subway for MaMa . Reach home , Bathe .. prepare .. then off to Rivervale Plaza to STUDYY ! did manage to get stuff into my brain . ((= pictures : Recording Time :   Group Photo before heading home :       Ramblings ... I dont know whats with me ? when i saw you online suddenly , my heart feel so SOUR . very sour . i thought , for once , i wont have to feel this sour feeling again . but ... it false . Now tears are at the verge to flow down my cheek . for I DONT KNOW what reason . seriously , I dont know , if i still likes you .. I dont know , if i miss you . I dont know , why i feel so sour , so terrible . I dont know , why there is tears in my eyes . I dont know , WHAT I WANT ! Confuse . i hate those DONTKNOW . i want to clear it . but i couldnt . you change , and i feel it for some reasons . My friends saw you plenty of times , but i saw you once . I dont know if i'm wishing to see you again . i just wanted to concentrate on my studies so badly .. but ME , MYSELF is PULLING DOWN MYSELF . sighhh ! i wanted to give you a casual Txt . but i didnt have to courage too ... withlove , AmanDa.C Monday, September 28, 2009 A BLOODY HUMID day . seriously the Shiney sun .. melts me . making me feel damn NUAAA . After school , headed to hougang mall . Had SubWay for lunch . walk walk .. & HOME ! ((= Pictures up ahead ! More of my face first !! taken when i reach home ! =D       Heading Home the Time !  Fail  Fail !  Fail .  Fail  Finally a perfect one ! =D Okehh .. i haven been studying since i reach home . so yaa .. STUDY TIME ! must really pull up my socks high high ! Amanda.C FUN ! Thursday, September 24, 2009  random pic.... Hmmss .. i had a great day ! woots . But stressing over EOY . i cant seems to be getting my study mood ! ))= && Wont be updating so soon again PEOPLE !! MayBe Back after EOY ! & i will flood my bloggieeee .. with PHOTOS when i'm BACK ! LOVEYOU , MISSYOU ! =D Miss me too OKEHHHH !?? Amanda.C Fickle Minded ! Monday, September 21, 2009 Photos unable to upload ! NOW , i was like considering on getting a DS or Ipodtouch ?? FICKLE MINED manxzxz . help me with it people ! tagg me your suggestions .. ((= Seriously , i had alot alot of WANTS . & i have to really cut down on it manxzc.. If not .. my whole family have to eat grass . and daddy have to work like a bull . to fulfill my WANTS . HEARTACHESSS for my PARENTS . i NEED to learn how to appericiate their love they had for me . AMANDA ! time to grow up . Ramblings , RECENTLY , when nights falls , i began to think about ZX again & again . making myself unable to sleep . 17 more days to EOY ! & i am still thinking shit ! WAKEUP LAH AMANDA ! ))= AmanDa.C Memories Doesnt Flash back . Saturday, September 19, 2009      Check out my ThickLips <3> Seriously , i LOVE MY CAMERAA ! canon Ixus875oIS .. Memories doesnt flash back .. but we can Cement it by taking pictures . i enjoy taking pictures manxzxz . I feel it very sucky when you are out and you didnt bring your camera along ! But at times , is also kind of troublesome when you have to bring it out . so yaa , handphone now all got build in camera but it fustrating when you are lack of Memory space .. and when your handphone doesnt have flashlights ! HAH ! Today , had tuition at Redhill .. we spend about , 3-4hours there and Guess what !! , i only did 6 questions ! AMAZING manxz ! After tuition , Me , Bird , QuiTong & Jocelyn headed down to Hougang Plaza to have SukiSuShi Buffet . WOW ! eat till my stomach almost explode . Fun anyway . & camwhore ALOT !! =D PS:Lazy upload so many ! (= Amanda.C i wish i could stop . Friday, September 18, 2009 Today , isnt a very nice day for me . Was suppose to be a reporter and interview 10people . somehow , i dont mind it doing it . But teacher's attitude and Comments , totally turn me off ! and makes me destest about the fliming ! While being a reporter and stuff , i suddenly misses NPCC to the MAX . siggghhh .. didnt manage to join much if the Fun . Had a quarrel with my teacher . Was damn shocking . not going in to detail .! After the fliming and sometime at NPCC . All of the NPCC people headed to the 401KPT to have a chat and stuff . so it was "THE MOMENT OF TRUTH" section . I hope many things had cleared in between all of us ! & to .. S , STAYSTRONG ! once a friend FOREVER a friend . Ramblings , i am tired already . For some particular reasons , i feel very tired . Sick of everything . and i wonder when will i say this pharse"I had given up & I'm a HAPPY girl ." i will wait for the day ! ((= okehh , enough of SELF PITY ! hah ! PS: Pictures will be uploaded soon !! Amanda.C 100 ... oohhh !? Thursday, September 17, 2009 What goes around , Comes around . & i'm beliving that i am getting back everything now . things dont go smoothly .. as it seems to be . Everything wasnt settle .. i guess . We stop it for a Break time . to rest . ohhhhgooosshhh ... EOY IS COMING ! 21MOREDAYS . SelfMotivation, AMANDA ! STAYSTRONG . you have to really make it through EOY . PASS ENGLISH ! and ... pass ALL SUBJECT ! if you are not going to be awake now and start STUDYING , you are GONE CASE ! REALLY GONE ! AMANDA .. Drop the thoughts and go .. move .. move with studies ! GO GO GO .. dont stop . ZX has been a past for nearly 2months ! STAYSTRONG ~ YOU GONNA FAIL BADLY IF YOU DONT START NOW ! ACPY !! WAKE UP ! okehh .. insane . but , really i need motivation . NEEDED badly .. gossshh . ))= eoyeoyeoyeoyeoyeoyeoy ... Amanda.C Embarrassing Moments . Tuesday, September 15, 2009 Today was Bird unlucky day ! she made a fool of out herself for 6times! Damn FUNNY ! cant stand it .. okehh .. not going to to detail as she doesnt like it . Bird , I will try my best to forget what happen today ! HAHAHAHAAAA ... Came Home straight after having lunch at HougangMall Macdonalds ! and was using the computer all the wayy .. till NOWW ! feeling lethargic already . && heading for my BEDDYYYY soon . Before it .. lets come to my Ramblings Section ! My speech , Chor , i just want to apologise to you .. i know i had been really flaring at you badly today . SRY ! & just want you to know , we didnt reject you . dont think so much alright ! STAYSTRONG .... Clara , i didnt side an outsider . i just didnt want you to get pissed off so eaily . if my words didnt make hurt you . i apologise ! Ramblings , What i want in MY LIFE ? seriously , i hate it when you guys say i couldnt make it in my guitar . why are you guys .. Discriminating meee !? it make me feel that i really totally cant make it . i myself lack of confidence already . I know i had been saying that i will learn guitar for nearly 4years .. but yet .. up till now i didnt learn at all . i will say is .. if i got the CASH .. i had become a guitar pro . i feel so so so disappointed that i couldnt take up guitar classes or worst .. having a own guitar . the feeling sucks . trust me . 4years ... and counting .... i have been waiting for MY GUITAR . i dont want to wait anymore . ))'= ZX , i need you to guide me through now . What am i going to do next ? (you are attach ..........) Amanda.C Iphone .. or just Itouch . Monday, September 14, 2009 Bloggy Bloggy Bloggy .. i'm Here to Feed you ! hoho .. XD   Left , IPHONE . Right , IpodTouch ... [it seems to have no difference.] Out of a sudden .. i wanted a iphone ! but .. people say it will EXPLODE ? then not safe . and daddy dont agree to it too . so i was like considering IpodTouch . but i already got a Ipod Nano .. to hear music . ohhhgoooosssshh .. so stuck . Iphone & Ipodtouch is like SAME ? just that Iphone can call/txt . Anyway , My handphone is Dying soon anyway .. it went servicing 3 times but is still keep auto Shut down !! kind of fustrating ! So is like ... i should get a Iphone RIGHT !!!?? hah ! but .. argh .. daddy dislike it . & i was surprise with myself .. never do i thought that i would fall in love with Iphone ! hohohhohoo ... And yaaa , my Biggest cousin just got her Iphone Recently too ! goossshh goossshh .. I AM SO INTO IT NOOWWWW !!! IPHONE ? IpodTOUCH !? \O/ or maybe , BLACKBERRY !!!!!! hah .. way too far . i am Too YOUNG to use such a Hi-Tech phone . hehheehhe ((= Iphone or Ipodtouch shall just be my consideration . worst thing ... am i even able to have it !? it cost a bomb manxzxzzx ! Reporting by ; Amanda.C feeling so lethargic . Friday, September 11, 2009 NUA'NESSS !!! currently is 12.03am a fun but tired day . Wednesday, September 09, 2009 let the pictures talk !        Tuesday, September 08, 2009 When Boredom strikes,           Currently now is , 12.25am . its 090909 .. WOW ! uncle getting married today early in the morning @ 8am . & i am still awake blogging . woots ~ Yesterday , 080909 i was home .. and out for an hour of Carpark Catch . running around the carpark .. making me feel so damn tired . guess what i was the LAST to be caught ! hoho ! but thanks to tiffany lah . she was like helping me ? okehh .. fun Game anyway . Ramblings , i finally understand the meaning of BORED . seriously . i was rotting real badly at home . i got nothing to do . really nothing ! gooosshh .. Then i decided to load Dota . so called Ruisong for help .. but turn out to be weimin helping ! after downloading and everything , Sebastian taught me how to play ! WONDERFUL .. okehhh .. i was astonish by sebastian . I kept asking him question and he was like .. repeating and repeating . but he was not angry at all .. and he didnt even scold me manxzxz ! how nice of him ! hhah . Random Feelings ... actually i kind of wish i would’ve just stayed home, i would’ve avoided disappointment. i kind of hate when people don’t turn out to be who you thought they were, or who they seemed to be during your first impression of them. i should simply finally learn that it is not good to have expectations. but i can’t help it. maybe there is just nothing to do about it. maybe i’m just looking for something too great, maybe i’m the problem after all, maybe i just cannot be satisfied with anything or anybody. i don’t like when things start getting old, when relationship slowly dies, when people change. i want things to be exciting and fun, all the time. i want people to be how i like them to be all the time. i want to be contented with everything. but this is me asking too much. although i feel like it’s not that much. it’s not like i’m asking for luxurious cars, a mansion, an academy award, and a few magazine covers. i’ve got nothing planned for the day. i’m kinda glad about that. i missed not doing anything. i’m quite contradicting myself, aren’t i? i want attention and people around me, but then wanna be alone. Amanda.C guilty ! Monday, September 07, 2009 is damn bloody fustrating when i cant upload pictures ! roar ! Todayy .. jus went slacking around . & i quarrel with daddy . ))= I hated for the things he had done to me . but ...... i am still feeling so guilty. //Edited ... You can hate a person just by looking at her/him: the hair, the smile, the look, the clothes. Anything can trigger negative feelings. You just have to go with that flow and any proof that person is not horrible will have no influence on you. I don’t know if we could say a good thing about every person we’ve met so far, maybe they haven’t impressed us in a positive way, but we can most certainly bitch about all of them. There must have been something to annoy us at one point. It’s only human! For every nice gesture and person who smiled thanks to you, there is an unhappy person, someone who feels neglected or discriminated against. It’s human to be annoyed, but above that, I think it’s human to be hatable (being available for hate). We are hatable with every gesture, every choice we make and tear we drop. Because all these are movements on a map filled with people and, inevitably, when we go one way we get closer to some and estrange from others. We are, in essence, controversial. Some are more controversial than others, true. It depends on how far we move from the center of the map or, in other words, how extremist we are. And how much we show of our personality we show to others. But still, we are always lovable to some and hatable to others. That’s the breakthrough. We’re both good and evil, pleasant and repulsive, smart and stupid. It only depends on where we’re standing when we’re judging. There is no black and white. And that’s why the big picture is important: we need to see the balance between the smiles and the tears someone provokes. And the reasons. The intentions. The more information we have, the better we see the tone of gray. Anyway, we are hatable. That’s our most human trait. Every person stands for the things another one hates. That’s life. And , i’m sure it happened to you before. we’ve all disliked people, and we’ve all been disliked as well. for good reasons like silly reasons. we always say we don’t choose who we love, but we actually do. you love that person that matches all those characteristics that you’re looking for in a person. and once you find something you don’t like in someone, let’s take for example jealousy, then you’ll start questioning yourself about that person, and you’ll wonder if they’re right for you. in friendships like relationships. but then, some will say we have to learn how to appreciate someone’s flaws in order to deserve them, which is true, but at what extent would we have to do so? when it comes to a point where you have to endure someone, it might not be a good idea to simply put up with the whole situation. or let’s say you feel like something is treating you unfairly, why would you just simply put up with it? and i know, a lot of people will stick around with them, no matter how that person will treat them. some will say “but i love him”, which makes me wonder what love is. how can you love someone who doesn’t have anything good to offer to you? i know, it always seems like i’m analyzing situations, and maybe i am. i think it’s interesting sometimes to simply stop for a few minutes, and look back at things, and analyze them. it makes you grow as a person, and usually makes you a better person. why? because we learn from our mistakes. Amanda.C GREAT ! Sunday, September 06, 2009 HOLAA ! thanks Adelle ! i was unable to like .. upload pictures and change the fonts of my colours . & finally , i am able too ! thanks .. Had been coming home late recently . YESTERDAY Had tuition at RedHill ! most of us .. really got no mood to study . & i had been munching on loads of snacks . ((= but okehh lah .. we still did manage to do some maths questions . After tution , mostof us headed to Hougang Mall . to have dinner and slack around there . Its really fun ! thanks guys . even though i didnt join in . as i was wearing a DRESS ! seriously , it ruin my day ! i feel damn weird wearing a dress even though i wore a shorts inside . Imagine .. i was like being damn damn gentle the whole day . They went to a playground to play . but i just sit down there and look ! ))= but okehh .. is fun as it flooded with their jokes ! ((= Today ! Home all dayy ! PS:i still cant upload pictures ????? why ? Amanda.C here ! Blogger Settings ! Thursday, September 03, 2009 BLOGGER settings not right !!! my blog is really NOLIFE manxzxz ! flooded with words . PS:i still cant upload pictures nor change my word colour ! School was Nice today . Being disturb rapidly ! RAHHH ... After school , headed to Amk hub to get stuff and Do homework at MAC ! hmms .. having funny topics today . and is damn Gross to the MAX . then home after MAC . Ramblings , Somehow , i feel we are completely strangers .. or worst , ENEMY . a damn weird feeling . I just want thing to be really smooth for me and you . or maybe .. for ME . i am over with you . 100% over . even though i still thinks at time . i dont want those funny feeling at all . and i dont want to poke my nose into your problems either ! STAYSTRONG BUBBLEEE ... ((= Amanda.C WHAT's WITH BLOGGER ! Wednesday, September 02, 2009 i still cant upload pictures ! why people can , i CANNOT !? argh .. & nxt .. i cant add colours to my words ~ damn it . Amanda.C >=( cant stand it . Tuesday, September 01, 2009 A cold day today .. was out to watch "TheProposal" Honestly , i didnt really paid full attention to the movie as i was really freezing to the MAX ! Royal lend me his Cardigan .. the Material is damn bloody thin . having a cardigan = to dont have . so ya . had a hard time in the movie theater ! After the movie . Had some food and then headed to the beach for some chat .. & home ! Once again , i'm poking my nose into ZX world . i was facebook-ing . then into his profile . and look look look . Then into Pratically every web that could access to his profile . is damn retard . and i feel the pinch inside me again ! Damn . & nxt , yearbook . for his sec3&4 picture . Ehh .. he seriously change alot uh ! he was damn bloody cute last time . When i look year book pictures of him .. the feeling is like .. "WAH , my NCO ." can feel some mentor-ship but when i see NOW the picture of him . i feel damn .. weird . I know i have been avoiding the feeling that i had for him . Why am i still thinking so much ? Bloody .. random GOODBOY!?? Amanda.C | |
