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Yawn Wednesday, March 04, 2009 Seriously .. i got loads of things to splurt out . it really time for me to get into a long long post again . hmmms .. Long post . Todayy wasnt great either . My voice were really dead now . so i am MUTE ! sigh .. being mute wasnt nice . i hope my throat would really recover soon . and let me communicate with my friends . Seriously .. i really need to talk . i got loads of things to say ! argh ! Well .. my left foot hurt really like shit ! when . i was on the way to my aunt clinic ,the bus was really packed & there is an indian Girl . fat in size .. Step on to my FOOT real HARD ! what the helll .... she step on to it .. without realising it . i tried to talk to her . telling about my foot . but i couldnt produce a sound .. so i tap on her shoulder pointing down . and she dont get what i mean ! F**K . after being a clown for a moment trying to show signs about my foot , then she finally realise it and she lift her foot off mine . She just turn away without an apology . Why got ppl like that want ? Pissed !! when .. for a doctor visit . got an 1 day MC ? & my throat were sore badly . i was rather restless today . cos i didnt manage to sleep well yesterday night . & i was almost awake every minute cos of my Itchy throat . sigh .. Thoughts : it been long since i receive a surprise . or a gift . i really want the pampering part to be back . when i was with the bastard , all my friends and him seems to care so damn much about me . i would actually get a gift or a surprise every week . it really very wonderful . feeling like a Queen & as though i am the most blessed girl on earth . after that moment of pampering , i realise i came to my sense . knowing whats was actually going on . I am not blessed at all . and tht moment of time was actually my saddest moment in life . i used to got what i want , i can throw tantrum as and when i liked & i can jus flare my unhappiness at all times . But now ? things really change . i got to control my tantrums and i could no longer be as stubborn as i was before . i got to be independent too . & not relying on ppl too much . Seriously .. i felt that my mindset really change . i used to belive in everlasting love . & i thought that love was the best thing in life . and Love was everything . hah . what a stoopid mindset , i used to have . see .. now i felt it was stoopid . so this shows that people mindset change as we grow ! i felt that i am really too young for a love life . i dont know whats the meaning of LOVE . so why am i actually making myself commit to something which was rather useless ? hah .. really very LAME . But one thing i got to say is .. that , no matter what i had actually did , like crying over u .. and stuff , i nvr regret a thing . cos u were once loved by me . if i regret , it will be a greater anguish for me . things that really change was that .. i realise , life was short & we were here to enjoy . Never ever because of a tree and foresake the whole forest . i used to hate ppl flirting .. but now , i realise it was actually alright for ppl to flirt . but dont really stretch to the extend lah ! hah .. enough of Love Life lah . Really ENOUGH ler . now , all i should forcus of now , is to excel in my studies . i felt the importance of studying & i seriously hope it wont be to late for me to realise it now . & lastly .. i really hope more time would be given for me to control my emotions . As i am not fully numb yet . i still do think . as memories are yet to fade ..... Shannon , really thanks for being my voice & there to hear me tok . & can i request a KINDER JOY from u ? hahahah .. shannon gonna screwed me if she saw this . but i knw , she will still get it for me right ? haha . Ah-mandaa . | |
